Wonder Two

What's your sign? It may be the cheesiest pick up line in the history books, but to answer I'm a Gemini. The twins. I've often been told that means I have a split personality. I call it having an indecisive nature. Volleying back and forth on simple decisions like what to order at dinner to the difficult ones like what I want to be when I grow up. And everything in between. It could mean I'm more open minded than the non-Gemini. It could also mean I'm quite the dreamer. But I'm thinking being indecisive could mean, in some cases, the same as a split personality. Some people, I believe, confuse a person with a split personality to be a schizophrenic. Or simply psycho. That's not always the case. I also believe, almost everyone could be considered to have a split personality. They just don't know it or take note of it. It's the side of you, you can't control no matter how hard you try. The side run by emotions and feelings that conflict what you can control. My heart tells me this, my head tells me that. You, for the most part, can control your thoughts and what goes on in your brain. But your heart has its own agenda. Feelings and emotions are sneaky independents. Try as you might, but sometimes  you can't help what is going on with that side of you. You can be a smart woman or man and know in your mind that something isn't right for you; it's not what's best. But you feelings are shaking their heads and stomping their feet, giving you a difficult time. What I've learned is it's best to convince yourself you can't help your emotions, you can't help how you feel. You can't help what you're feeling. You can't help what you felt. Lets be honest, it isn't all that easy. Yet again, your mind is trying to convince you against your other side. It makes for complete mass confusion. We've all been there. And we all get through it. Admit it or not, we're all indecisive and split to a certain extent.

And whether or not you agree with me, what I'm saying is this... We, for the most part, are split. Our personalities are split, one ruled by mind, the other ruled by heart. One you can control and the other, well not so much.

Now should I wear jeans or a dress tomorrow? How will I ever decide?


Good night & day,
Jovana